He brought me through a process of transformation. He forced me to dig through my heart and take care of things that I had hidden away for years. I responded by turning my heart back toward the Lord and surrendering all of myself at the foot of His throne. And we all, who with unveiled faces contemplate the Lord’s glory, are being transformed into his image with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit. This is when God spoke to my heart through 2 Corinthians 3:16-18:īut whenever anyone turns to the Lord, the veil is taken away. Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom. He pursued me and revealed Himself to me in ways that were very personal. In the middle of 2010, God captured my heart. I was threatened by the thought of my marriage coming to an end because of our sexless marriage. I did find enough courage to briefly share with a few people, but it never served as a solution. Although I felt as if I shouldn’t share with others the struggle we were facing, there were a few divine appointments that came up where my husband encouraged me to seek guidance, advice and prayer. I had insecurities welling up inside that I was an inadequate wife, unable to please my husband. I also didn’t feel like there was enough trust within relationships to share such intimate details of our life. I didn’t want to talk about my issue too much with others. There were a handful of times over the course of 4 years that sex didn’t hurt as bad, but it was definitely far less than satisfying. I began avoiding intimacy with my husband and eventually he stopped pursuing me, injured by the blow of my rejections. We knew that something was keeping us from experiencing sex, but we struggled to find even a clue.ĭespite the doctors telling me I am as healthy as can be, pain inflamed my body during almost every sexual encounter.
We researched what we could on the Internet, I begged my doctor to give me bad news, and we even compromised boundaries during our pursuit. Hopelessness incurred daily, as our lack of intimacy forced us into isolation. When I say we tried everything, we pretty much tried everything! We both had a desire to experience an amazing sex life in marriage, however, disappointment set in as time began passing us by and our situation did not progress. The act of intercourse was nearly impossible for me, as excruciating pain inflamed my lower regions. My husband and I were not fulfilled sexually, which amplified other areas of our marriage. The first four years of our marriage were wearisome, heartbreaking and even devastating. Our excitement and anxiousness to get married fed our courage to say those two little words! After the party dissolved and we made our getaway, the reality of our responsibilities as husband and wife sank in, as well as the truth about sex! The commitment didn’t seem difficult at the time, I was head over heels in love, and we were both eager to fulfill our relationship having saved sex for marriage. In January 2007, I said “I Do” in front of our closest family and friends. Discover through Jennifer’s story how God can bring you through it all to a place of transformation. If you are feeling disappointment or even despair about your marriage, the heart-cry of this book is: You are not alone. How did Jennifer and her husband survive the painful times? What did they do when they were tempted to call it quits? How did God miraculously step in during the darkest hour to rescue and redeem them, tearing down the veil once and for all? The Unveiled Wife is a real-life love story one couple’s refreshingly raw, transparent journey touching the deep places in a marriage that only God can reach. It was as if a veil had descended between her and her husband, and between her and God―one that kept her from experiencing the fullness of love. Trapped by fear and insecurity, and feeling totally alone, Jennifer cried out to God: Instead, they were marked by disappointment and pain. But the first years of marriage were nothing like she’d imagined. She dreamed of closeness, of being fully known and loved by her husband. As a young bride, Jennifer Smith couldn’t wait to build her life with the man she adored.
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